haven't been feeling too good...

exams are okay so far...

other things have been hitting me left and right... and perhaps the largest blow is dealt by myself...

Do I deserve love? Probably not... perhaps that's why God's love is so great... that it's unconditional... even on the basis of my sinfulness... God still loves us... theoretically sound... but I can't feel it anymore...

Many things have happened. I'm the main cause of all these happenings, either in mistakes committed, or in feelings towards people in certain ways, or in analyzing people too much, or in putting myself down too much, or having too much pride, or being too rebellious to change, or being too pissed with many things happening, or being ashamed at my naive and prideful self, and so on and so forth.

Again, I find myself in this mess. My life is in a mess. Priorities haywire. Handle issues haywire. Thoughts haywire. Temptations all over the place. Wanting more and more to give in to temptations... Wanting more and more to rebel... more and more to a life of apathy... a life that is probably even worse than where I am now...

Straddled between two sides, neither can I let go
One to life and one to death, and yet I stumble
The road to life is arduous, the other also laborious
One a life of hope, the other a life of achievement

Wars are not fought to determine who is right, but to determine who is left...
Will I be Left or Will I be Right...?