Ambivalence

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–noun
1. uncertainty or fluctuation, esp. when caused by inability to make a choice or by a simultaneous desire to say or do two opposite or conflicting things.

2. Psychology. the coexistence within an individual of positive and negative feelings toward the same person, object, or action, simultaneously drawing him or her in opposite directions.

This is my first blog post since a fairly long time ago. Well, exams are coming up, and things have not been exactly going too well for me recently.

I like it when Ailing laughs at me and consequently mentions softly... "You are so naive"

I used to think I know alot, or my method is most likely right because I have thought through certain things... but I realize that I am wrong in many instances

Applications vs theories ... how to reach a good balance for this tension. We need theories to apply, but if we focus too much on theories, we can't apply.

I understand more and more why certain things occured in certain ways in the past, and being a critique of the way things were led last time, I tried to change this methodology, but alas I am not that right either.

Love fulfills the law. Interesting phrase in the bible. Let no debt remain outstanding except the debt to love one another. Theories are but empty talk, application is tough... very tough...

Oh well... just something I've been pondering about... and will probably try to improve on in the future.

and yeah... the Lord constantly shows me all my flaws... and there are many many many... it's tough... life has been so tough... and it's getting even tougher...

Many thoughts running through my head... but yeah... holidays are coming... so... yup... guess things will improve once I take time off to think through all these issues... God will be busy when I start asking questions... =D (He plays cheat! already written the answers in the bible... haha... okay yes... there are still other ways that He will reveal...)