Alas, the fellowship has undergone the restructuring.

I really believe that this is a plan given to us by God as we can see the many reasons that we really need to have two ministries now - YA and YF.

In every system, there is imperfection. In every change, there is resentment. Things happen for a reason. Life goes on. We need to continue to press on for God.

The reality of the issue hasn't really set in me yet, but I am sure that once things do, I will really miss my two brothers who have crossed over to the YF ministry to serve. It is projected to be a 5 year long period where they will help train up new Disciple Makers and the future leaders of the YF ministry. I will continue to keep them in prayers.

Through the restructuring, I am now given the opportunity from God to serve as a group leader as well as being a disciple maker. Today the preacher mentioned a very interesting thing that happened to him. He said that someone said that he was very happy of his service because he was the least qualified, which makes him depend on God more for strength and wisdom in his service. I think that it was a good point being made. Sometimes, we rely too much on our own strength. I thank God for humbling me, and I know that I am very limited as a person, but I can do all things through Him who gives me strength. On top of that, He has given me a good leader who continues to help me and good co-workers who provide support for me. I pray that God will continue to use me to help my brothers and sisters, to present everyone mature in Christ.

Well, life is tough. A cliche saying goes like this, "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going". It's time to get going. I believe in God's providence. He is the Jehovah Jireh, and He will provide with the necessary strength and wisdom to pull me through the valleys - the challenges ahead. I praise the Lord for He has continually shown faithfulness to His people, that He will send His angels before us in war, that we are not in this battle alone, that He has provided us with such a great fellowship, great leadership, and great brothers and sisters.

Let's continue to run this race, like one who runs for the prize, being focused on Him and not be distracted by the worldly attractions. Let's press on for Him! ; )

"24Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize." 1 Cor 9:24

"So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, 7rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness. " Colossians 2 : 6-7

Thank you for the cross, Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love, Lord
Thank you for the nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace

Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious

High and lifted up
Jesus Son of God
The Darling of Heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb
Worthy is the Lamb

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear.

Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26

Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?

27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?

28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?

31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'

32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.

33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Matthew 6:25-34

One of the verses that encourages me alot...

"19My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, 20for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires. 21Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you. " James 1:19-21

"18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[a] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out." Romans 7:18

Oh Lord help me please.

Struggling to continue keeping the right priorities... but a christian life is never easy... There are many things that we do not see the complete picture of... for we are after all limited beings.

I really enjoyed my time at the SMU Christian Fellowship(smucf) camp... But after going back to my church fellowship and giving feed back about the smucf, then I realised that there are certain implications... which honestly I had this feeling that things weren't as easy as just joining a fellowship.

I loved my fellowship group there... I thank God for the opportunity of having a good experience of learning from different brothers and sisters in Christ and seeing them placing their priorities in God rather than in their school work and grades.

I hope to be able to reach a balance in handling my time... and to find a way to blend smucf into my life... with a broad perspective of its implications and that I'll not be going against any principles.

Went for a career talk by the Office of Career Services (OCS) in SMU today... Again another psychoing session. Telling us to beef up our resume, telling us what is SOOOOO important to us... I can only agree to a certain points... but they are just trying to live a busy life... finding meaning in what they think defines them... but sadly it isn't so...

I always try to search for certain words that the speakers say... to see if there are any hints that he/she may be a christian... sadly, what I hear is just branding yourself, TEACHING you to be make yourself different, to partake in more activities, to bask in the richness of the SMU culture and opportunities... but all these are just a mindless chase if you do not have the compass given from God. The thing that can align us, to center us in the right direction. I really hope to have a better filter against all this things that might take us captive... and also that my brothers and sisters will not fall into its deceptive attraction.

Anyway, I'm just feeling really down that things aren't always simple as it seems. I'm tired... of the complexity of things... Well.. that's life... no one promised a rainbow... not God... not parents... not friends...

Learning to rejoice in life... It's a painful and arduous journey ... EMO !

Knowing You.... Jesus

All I once held dear, built my life upon,
All this world reveres and wars to own;
All I once thought gain I have counted loss,
Spent and worthless now compared to this.

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You
There is no greater thing.
You're my all, You're the best,
You're my Joy, my Righteousness,
And I love You Lord.

Now my heart's desire is to know You more,
To be found in You and know as Yours,
To possess by faith what I could not earn
All surpassing gift of righteousness

Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You
There is no greater thing.
You're my all, You're the best,
You're my Joy, my Righteousness,
And I love You Lord.

Oh to know the power of Your risen life,
And to know You in Your sufferings;
To become like You in Your death, my Lord,
So with You to live and never die.

Super touching song, and rich in content... Oh Lord, may we know you more and more... and that we conform to Christ-likeness more and more... You're our everything, Lord, nothing more is needed other than you.

We are christians who happen to be students.

Where are our priorities ?

Are we God centred... worshipping Him in all we do?

Or are we taken captive by what the world can offer?

In James it says that do not love the world... for you are either a friend or a foe with God...

Work out your salvation with fear and trembling...

Continue to press on for God... for we are citizens in Heaven... !

Take care brothers and sisters in Christ! ;)

Thank GOD !!!

The SMU Christian fellowship is quite a good fellowship.... The brothers and sisters are quite grounded in His word... and they are focused on improving in His word and the application of it in our life in SMU....

Thank God for the time of fellowship with CYYAM brothers this mornign as well... went Heng Wei's place for QT...

Thank God also that He reminded me constantly to learn the lesson of patience...

Thank God for letting me be more clear about certain issues in life... e.g. seeking, church camp.

Thank God that Jia En, Jia Hui and Ying Qian have agreed to be in the church camp committee.

Thank God for blessing me with all these things... and for the sermon given through His servant James who's currently serving in the Christian Fellowship in SMU... For the passage on Colossians... and how to continue to seek motivation and to ground my principles and to evangelise in SMU....

I pray for all my brothers and sisters in Christ... Not limited to GBC.... that we'll all continue to conform to his likeness... to be edified... to continue to thirst for His words... and to continue to obey Him and to have hope in our eternal life... ; )

Take care guys.

Urgghh.... I think I lost my ring... Must've been dropped when I dozed off on the bus... was super tired yesterday... and I think my fingers became smaller or something... My ring was like too big for me already...

Well... I think there are some lessons to learn....

Why am I so attached to something that is material ??

Why can't I let go ?

I'm telling myself that it is not important... i mean... the ring has no significance... other than the fact that i bought it myself... i mean it's not like a gift from someone, not like it's my wedding ring... and yet I find myself searching high and low for it even after knowing that it is most likelye gone... urggh !

I don't think i'll replace it... unless there is some special reason... must learn to let go...

I thank God that even though I fell asleep... I did not lose anything else... all my other important documents were still with me... my handphone, my student card, my matriculation bag and so on... Must learn to give thanks... and not to be attached to what is seen...

I was really quite irritated with my feeling of lost for the ring... owell... GET OVER IT WEI HONG !

An Invitation

Dear brothers and sisters....

you are cordially invited to my house this Thursday at 9.30am to have a time of QT and sharing session...

Please inform me if you are intending to come... looking forward to a good time of fellowship...

Likely program :

0930-1015 - Breakfast
1015-1115 - Quiet Time
1115-1215 - Sharing + Prayer
1215-1245 - Singspiration
1245 onwards - Free Time (Probably lunch... or even tennis if there is time)

EDIT!!!!

It's no longer at my place.... to suit some person who needs to study... we're switching it to bishan.... Either Cheng Hung or Ziling's place... pls update your attendance... so far there's Cheng Hung, Wei En, Ziling, Ying Qian, Kai En and I... Hexi i'm sorry... but I won't be there at 5pm anymore... or rather i'll be giving tuition then... and Kai En will be meeting Ailing at 3pm... You can check with Cheng Hung or Wei En if they are still there...

okok.. the timing wise hasn't changed... just that the venue is changed... we will meet 0930 at bishan mrt ... Cos i dunno how to go to their homes... =x

Okay see you all !

Thank you, Father

Lord, I thank you for revealing your unlimited grace to me.
For accepting the ugliest me, the unworthy, filthy me.

Thank you for rescuing me from the valley of death,
for staying with me through my darkest times.

When I was so far away, you were waiting...
for my rebellion to stop.

Thank God for your grace to let me see my foolishness
to pick up again, to commit to your kingdom

You welcomed me back with open arms
and allowed me to partake in your work

Now at this point in time, I've learnt that you have your timing
And I'll await your time, not on my sole persistence

i've become amazingly white thanks to SK-2 whitening products... Deyong aren't you jealous...? ( My fren who has this obsession of being white when he's so dark =x)

Learning to entrust things into God's hands... many things that are really beyond my control....

Learning to seek help from brothers and sisters as well... and not just on what I can do myself...

If you are still mourning and blaming
yourself it is not because God is blaming
you; He has put the blame on Jesus. It can
only be due to one of two things. Either
that you have not really repented, or, more
likely, you are mourning over your lost
righteousness. Perhaps you feel that, having
been saved for so long, you should not
be failing as you are. . . . You are in effect
saying, “Alas for my lost righteousness.”
That is nothing but pride.

Excerpt from the book " When we have failed, what's next?"

" All of us have become like one who is unclean,
and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags;
we all shrivel up like a leaf,
and like the wind our sins sweep us away. "

Isaiah 64:6

As seen from the passage, all our righteous acts are like filthy rags? Why then are we still holding on to the fact that we can, by ourselves, be righteous? The first step to righteousness is recognising that there is nothing righteous about our self... Another paradox of our faith... On a side note... there are many paradoxes in our faith... The greatest amoung you is the least, many who are first are last, many who are last are first, to lose yourself is to find it... those who humble yourself will be exalted... and so on and so forth... okay back to the main topic...

The author then goes on to sum it up using the verse in Philippians 3:8-9, a famous line by Paul:

"I consider everything a loss compared to
the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ
Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost
all things. I consider them rubbish, that
I may gain Christ and be found in him,
not having a righteousness of my own
that comes from the law, but that which
is through faith in Christ—the righteousness
that comes from God and is by faith"

If you are still mourning and blaming
yourself it is not because God is blaming
you; He has put the blame on Jesus. It can
only be due to one of two things. Either
that you have not really repented, or, more
likely, you are mourning over your lost
righteousness. Perhaps you feel that, having
been saved for so long, you should not
be failing as you are. . . . You are in effect
saying, “Alas for my lost righteousness.”
That is nothing but pride.

Excerpt from the book " When we have failed, what's next?"