It's funny how things can change so quickly... well... like the saying goes... the only constant is change...

Sometimes it's just kinda tough to comprehend the things that have unravelled are the best for me... Do we really have to look in retrospect before we can appreciate the goodness of things? Or is there some way we can appreciate the goodness whilst living through the apparent state of things...?

It seems tougher now... and somehow I feel the dangerous feeling again... that there isn't someone who really understands me... I guess it's a two-way street... is it? I don't know... maybe I'm just creating all these barriers that people don't really understand me anymore... Or am I so disillusioned with the the opinion that people are complicated that I've subconsciously indulged in creating a complicated being in myself?

I'm desperately tempted to use my favourite catch phrase, " Life goes on... " but I guess if I'm always so pessimistic and so passive about improving the status quo... then I'll just continue down this slippery slope... and will never get a release from what's troubling me...

I still haven't completely identified the factors that have led to this emotional low... I only know that I need to try to get out of it...

Seeking God for answers... I hope I don't depend on myself alone for answers cos I can't seem to find any anyway...