After a day of resting at home... I think I understand the feelings that I have right now.

It's the old fighting with the new.
It's a transitionary period. And I'm still not used to it yet.
I wanna shed away the distractions, and draw happiness from His word alone.
It is difficult to keep focus... it's a spiritual battle. satan does not want to give up, but I know God never did.

Another thing would be ya.. I think that I should not think too much about certain things. You cannot enjoy the things that you don't possess.
God has certain boundaries, and has His own time. Even when He gave Canaan to the Israelites, he had set specific boundaries for them, albeit them being very generous boundaries.

Yeah... anyway... yesterday Rev Tong said something very interesting. A saint is not a person who is without sin, but rather a person who is extremely sensitive to sin. Joseph was one such person whom did not succumb to the sin that was presented to him by Potiphar's wife! He is the perfect role model for us... willing to stand firm in his principles to the extent of being thrown into the jail, and being wronged, and yet without a single grumble against God!