" If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does" James 1 :5-8

Amazing... God's words is just so amazing... it is exactly the situation I'm facing now. I'm so lost and torn between choosing a course to a teaching career and a financial career. I've prayed about it before... I've consulted friends.. consulted my parents.. consulted my teachers... But I'm still so uncertain.

I was awoken by this passage... "but when he asks, he must believe and not doubt..." I realise... that I had not set my heart right. I did not set my attitude correct. I never had the mentality that if God showed me the path, I will be obedient and follow through with it even with any hardships that might occur along the way.

I guess this is why... my prayers are "unanswered". I do not want to be a double-minded man... I do not want to be unstable... Instability is not the character trait of a future head of a household. I must cultivate this area... to be truly obedient to God's words and His leading.

Please pray for me, my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ.

To those who are facing the same problem as me... This is a passage to encourage you all...

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!" Matthew 7:7-11